Am I really 34 weeks already??

It's amazing to me that I'm already 34 weeks along. Yes, there are some days when the time seems to drag and I'm so glad because I doubt that I'm really ready to have another baby in the house. Yet there are other days when the time drags and I feel this little monkey kick and I can hardly wait to hold him/her in my arms!



This pregnancy was so hard at the beginning, I was so sick, and to be honest (I know it sounds harsh), but I wasn't really that excited. I mean really, all the boys can dress themselves, feed themselves, brush their own teeth, etc. so how could I think about being excited about diapers, sleepless nights, solids, teething, and all the other stuff that we must start over with??



But God is good. And He is faithful. And He truly knows me more than I even know myself. He knew it would take awhile for me to adapt and well, that's why He gives us 9 months!! So I just completed 34 weeks yesterday and while my due date is March 13th, I will have a c-section on March 3rd...just 4 weeks away!!! And guess what...I can hardly wait for the diaper changes, the nursing, or the sleepless nights! I feel the elbows (or maybe the knees) pushing against my belly button and I just want to giggle. I toss and turn all night long and don't get any sleep...yet I wake up feeling happy and excited in the mornings. God knew.



Finding out, or in our case--NOT finding out the gender has been a HUGE step of patience for me. I am not patient. At all. But I told Jeff that if we couldn't see him/her clearly at the ultrasound we had at 16 weeks (it was early for an u/s), then I would join him in not finding out the gender. Well guess what--our little jellybean was so stubborn!! He/She had the umbilical cord between the legs and his/her legs were crossed at the ankles! So no chance to get a view on "the goods". Bummer.



So here we are, just 4 weeks out and I'm dying to know if this will be another boy, or a surprise little girl. Of course we will be happy with either, what kind of mother would I be if I didn't say that, right? Yet I find myself obsessing about it all day (and all of those sleepless nights) long!!! I want to know, and I want to know NOW, darn it!! :o) I am tired of buying yellow, green, orange and red clothing....and worrying over every piece of that clothing if it's too "boyish" or too "girlie". Yet we wait.




Because of where we live in Peru, I have had 1 official Dr. appointment!! I know some of you might be aghast at that--what, no prenatal appointments? Our colleagues have a portable ultrasound machine, so they did a couple u/s to make sure the peanut was measuring okay--according to my dates (this was back in October/November). They also took my blood pressure a couple times to make sure that was alright. Then I did go to the hospital 1 1/2 hrs. away to have my blood glucose tested. And then there was that time a couple weeks ago when I met with a Dr. here in Arequipa (the one who delivered Nathan almost 5 years ago) who measured my belly, listened to the heartbeat and told me things looked good. But because I'm an obsessive worrier, I just want to make sure things are okay--so I found a place here in Arequipa that does 3D ultrasounds and I made an appointment to have one done this next week! I just want to make sure that there are fingers and toes and chubby little cheeks growing in there!! I am so excited to see this little person on screen and watch him/her moving around!! I'll keep you posted, but the gender will still remain a secret for another month...then we'll all know!! :o)